Monday, July 12, 2021

CHEER SOMEONE UP!

 

I know, I know -- Nikki is of the canine persuasion, and receiving a bouquet of flowers did not actually cheer him up, as you can see from his skeptical glance at my offering. But he got a cookie for sitting so nicely, and that always lifts his spirits. And I cheered myself up with this silly idea.

"CHEER SOMEONE UP!"
Does that sound like a profound Buddhist teaching to you? Maybe not, but that's what I took away from the dharma talk I listened to the Saturday before last. And it has stayed with me.
The speaker, Norman Fischer is one of my favorite teachers. He's very down-to-earth -- as is fitting for the founder of an organization called Everyday Zen.

Norman titled his talk "What is the body?" I confess that, while I experienced a few moments of enlightenment about my body, it all evaporated as soon as the talk was over. A not uncommon occurrence with me.
BUT what he said when he was DONE with the body business really struck me. He talked about the fact that there are so many huge social issues that we're struggling with right now. It's easy for a conversation with a friend to spiral into a litany of despair. Norman said something like:
"It's hard not to feel overwhelmed by the state of the world. So I hope you all are keeping up your meditation practice, because your practice helps to cheer you up. And YOU need to be cheered up yourself so that you can CHEER OTHER PEOPLE UP!"
Cheer someone up. It's embarrassingly mundane, simple-minded, platitudinous. And yet it opens me to startling images of jumping up and singing and dancing, to disrupt the descent down that spiral of despair.

Or sending amusing postcards.... This is my favorite awake-at-3am-haunted-by-catastrophic-fear activity. I feel that postcards are highly underrated as a means to save the world. A nice picture postcard cheers up the sender when she writes it and the receiver when she.. well... receives it. Not to MENTION all the unknown people along the way who might have read the postcard and been cheered/amused/moved by it.

Cheer someone up, dammit!

I'm not talking about IGNORING the multiple crises we're facing. I should hope you would know that by now. Activism is the true antidote to despair. But perhaps cheering people up is also a form of activism. We KNOW we're in big trouble. We don't need to continually freak ourselves out about it. We need to join with others to take action. AND we need to have a good time whenever possible. THEREFORE, we need to cheer others up, so that we have someone to have a good time with!

&.....We need to celebrate our victories!
Speaking of which, how about .....
THE END OF TAX HAVENS!
All the big countries at the G-20 meeting in Venice have agreed on
a minimum corporate income tax of 15%
to deprive international corporations of the ability to avoid taxes by setting up their headquarters in no- or low-tax countries!
Isn't that just the finest and most improbable thing
that could have happened?!?
The chief financial officers of the biggest countries
deciding to rein in the corporations?!
And why did it happen?
Because Janet Yellen, Secretary of the Treasury
of the United States, made it happen!
And who appointed Janet Yellen?
President Joe Biden.
And who elected Biden?
Millions of us, with an enormous amount of effort.
And why did Biden appoint such an enlightened
& powerful woman as Secretary of the Treasury?
Because our strong progressive movement
has been on his ass since the day he was nominated.
Thank you, Janet Yellen!
&
Congratulations to all the dedicated progressive activists.
DEMOCRACY WORKS IF YOU WORK IT.
or as Winston Churchill said:
"Democracy is the worst form of government –
except for all the others that have been tried."

Dear Bloggelinis:
ARE YOU CHEERED UP YET?
Terry

Friday, July 9, 2021

Dennis & the Mollie Bus Are Back!

 

I don't own a car. (I don't believe ANYONE should own a car unless they need it for a special reason.) Not only am I car-free, but I live up a rather steep hill. Pulling a cart full of groceries up that hill is not within the realm of possibility. So, before Mollie Stone's on 18th St. started their shuttle several years ago, I had three options:
  1. Borrow a car (but now I've totally stopped driving).
  2. Plan a shopping trip with someone who has a car (not ideal because I don't feel free to take as long as I want).
  3. Take a bus or walk to the store and get a taxi/Lyft home.
Number three is not so terrible. But I loved, before the pandemic, strolling/rolling down the hill to Mollie's, doing a humongous shop....
AND GETTING A RIDE HOME UP THE HILL WITH DENNIS!
Dennis is my friend. I always enjoy our very brief chat, and he has renamed Loulou & Nikki. He always asks, "How are Fifi and Pierre?" When he puts all the bags in the house, they greet him happily -- even though Poodles are not French at all!

Once I was walking home with the pups after a long walk, which didn't include a stop at Mollie's. We got caught in a cloudburst. Clearly we were about to get soaked. That wouldn't have bothered Nikki & Loulou in the least, but it would have been a big drag for ME. Suddenly the Mollie Bus appeared from nowhere, and Dennis offered me and the pups a ride home! It was like magic, like the night bus in Harry Potter! Dennis was my savior.

I am a city girl, and these encounters with the people who work in the neighborhood stores ... I thrive on them. They give me a strong sense of connection to this place called San Francisco.
THE SECOND MOST MISSED THING ABOUT NOT DOING MY OWN GROCERY SHOPPING: Picking my own produce. I and I alone want to be the one who decides if the mushrooms are fresh, if the artichoke looks good, if there's enough kale in the bunch to justify the price. The
head of cabbage has to be HEAVY for its size or forget it! And the Fuji apples with the weird striations are the best ones! The Instacart shoppers seemed to go for size. I wish I could find the photos I took of some of the huge produce they delivered to my door: A jicama as big as my head and a yam the size of a football.

I am so grateful for their service when I was afraid to shop for myself. I don't know how much danger there was in shopping while masked. But at the time, we didn't know the relative danger of anything. The whole WORLD had become a threat. And these shoppers were willing to take the risk for me. I pray that none of them got Covid 19.

Anyhow, I'm DONE with that particular moral dilemma -- I hope forever -- and am absolutely thrilled to now be selecting my own Fujis.




THIRD MOST MISSED THING: Seeing what new products are available. This is America! Everyone is always inventing new food products! And some of them are really good! I'm very happy to have discovered Sriracha Mayonnaise.
FOURTH: I really missed re-using all my plastic bags. I am one of the many who are painfully conscious that plastic is suffocating the planet. One very sad aspect of the pandemic is that we started using so much MORE plastic than before in order to diminish the possibility of contagion. This is one issue that has changed very little as the virus has loosened its hold on us. Everything is STILL in plastic.

Before the virus, I tried to re-use my plastic bags as much as possible. I would bring small bags I'd washed to put the produce in, and big bags to put everything in. I dreamed of getting to the point where I DIDN'T HAVE ENOUGH PLASTIC BAGS! Covid 19 changed all that. My shoppers, of necessity, used new bags for everything. It hurt me to watch the bags within bags within bags -- both plastic & paper -- piling up in my flat.
So now I'm back to bringing my small and large bags with me when I do my shopping. It's true, that great day when I don't have enough bags has been pushed far back into the future. But I'm working on the project again, and it feels good.

And when the Mollie Bus FINALLY came back, which was AFTER I'd already gone back to doing my own shopping --- I was SOOOOO happy!

Dear Bloggelinis: Happy grocery shopping from me and Dennis! Terry

Wednesday, July 7, 2021

The Greatest Headline in the History of the Universe!

 

Yes, folks, it cannot be denied:
When an eel climbs a ramp
to eat squid from a clamp,
that's a moray.
(Eel, that is)

It goes without saying that this headline will strike anyone younger than... well, anyone young at all as simply bizarre rather than truly great. To appreciate the sublime silliness of the headline, one must be old enough to remember Dean Martin's immortal hit song, "That's amore" (the "e" pronounced as a long "a" as in "moray") -- the first line of which ran .....

When the moon
hits your eye
like a big pizza pie,
that's amore!
(Love, that is.)


That is a Snowflake MORAY Eel you see in the photos, and a special moment is being captured on video for the first time:
"When a moray hunts, it seizes its prey with the teeth of its outer jaw, and then its pharyngeal jaws leap forward out of the throat and into the mouth to grasp the prey and drag it deeper into the eel's body."
This noteworthy moment was the first time the action of the second pair of jaws was filmed for posterity. We are looking at four stills from said film. I think the lower left photo shows that second jaw in operation.
 
Thus does the science of Moray eels deepen, at the same time as the artistic achievements of headline-writing leap to undreamed-of heights. Why, that anonymous New York Times copy editor has grabbed immortality and swallowed it down as if she had two jaws herself!
 
I do not know the sex of the copy editor, but I always assume people are female unless proven otherwise, to make up for several thousand years of the opposite assumption. I DO know this individual must be of a certain age to have heard "When the moon hits your eye..." etc. yammering on the radio and incessantly inside her head in 1953. Hell, I was only seven years old, and I NEVER forgot the pizza pie in the eye -- which, when you think about it, is much messier image than the ramp with the clamp.

OTHER HEADLINES I HAVE LOVED

When I was living in New York City in the early 1970s, all the hippies, radicals and scruffy artists waited eagerly every Thursday for the Village Voice to arrive on the newsstands. We could not plan our weekend without it. The Voice had a wonderful headline writer. My all-time Village Voice favorite was the headline of a theater review. The play was the famous 18th century Restoration comedy by Oliver Goldsmith, She Stoops to Conquer. (Well, it's famous if you were a theater major.)

Apparently this particular production of this delicious farce (with a great resourceful heroine) was not so tasty. In fact, the reviewer found it tedious in the extreme. And that allowed the copy editor to crown the review of She Stoops to Conquer with the headline:
SHE CONKS TO STUPOR.

Now, that's a headline to savor -- She Conks to Stupor -- especially if you're a theater major. That was my all-time favorite headline until I encountered "When an Eel Climbs a Ramp..."

And then this same copy editor (I believe) hit another homer when WBAI Pacifica radio host Steve Post was fired from his teaching job. Steve Post was the most brash and subversive of the WBAI hosts. I remember one marathon funding drive, when all the other hosts were begging listeners to contribute, Post just berated us: "You sit there doing nothing while I work my ass off, and now I'm supposed to beg you to pay me! Forget it!" He went on and on insulting us while the phones were going crazy with donations pouring in.

Anyhow, Steve Post taught part-time at a college on Long Island named in honor of C.W. Post. Old C.W. made his fortune inventing breakfast cereals. He is the father of Post Toasties. Perhaps Steve had stepped on a few too many Post Toasty toes and, as a result, was told to pack his bags.

Now, this is a copy editor who saw the potential for headline glory in a review of a boring production of a Restoration comedy. How could she possibly fail to notice the obvious opportunity offered by the firing of subversive Steve?

Thus...

POST LOSES POST POST.

.... blossomed in the Village Voice one day in the early 70s. You don't forget a headline like that. Nevertheless, it has now been demoted to third place in my headline hierarchy.

What do these three headlines have in common? The copy editors, in their brilliance, saw rare opportunities and grabbed them. And in so doing, they've given me (and perhaps you) and will continue to give me (and perhaps you) many moments of internal giggling. Ramp clamp eye pie moray amore... Only a genius could have put it all together.

Dear Bloggelinis: You may have noticed I have not yet returned to grappling with the world. I have been feeling all grappled out. Perhaps you too? But the grappling is still needed, so I'm gradually returning to my Blogmistress ways. Perhaps soon I will write something deep and insightful. Terry

Saturday, June 19, 2021

Reading Not Recorded -- Plus a Funny Photo

 

Nikki was standing absolutely still, with the curtain over his head. It seemed he had gotten fed up with having his eyes washed and he was hiding from the eye-washer. He appeared to believe that -- because I was invisible to him -- he was invisible to me. He did not move a muscle as I went and got my camera and slowly approached.

How long had he been standing there like this?

For all his elegance and careful breeding, Nikki is a rather hapless dog. Loulou has the padded recliner all to herself because Nikki cannot figure out how to lie down in it. He stands and rocks madly back and forth. At the park, he is totally dedicated to chasing the ball, but he thinks the ball goes in the direction he runs, so he just starts out galloping without paying attention to my throw. Not that it would make much difference, since he has terrible eyesight. Fortunately, Loulou is much more discerning, and he follows her. This photo of the two of them says it all. I call it "The Goofball & the Princess."
All in all, a most lovable clown.

Friday, June 18, 2021

HOW THE READING OF MIKVAH WENT


So the last time I blogged, I was preparing for a Zoom reading of my play, MIKVAH.

I was exhausted after the reading. I don't know if it was because:

(1) I'm eight years older than the last time I dove into starting a play (in 2013)

or

(2) Because this subject is particularly intense and challenging to me

or

(3) Because I'm feeling drained by this strange world we've been living in since March 2020 -- Pandemic, Presidential election, right-wing insurrection -- little details like that...

,,,,But I've been EXHAUSTED by writing in a way I haven't experienced before.

So I needed a break after the reading of MIKVAH. And my close ex Jessica was arriving for a visit and I took a break for a whole week. It was quite a nice experience to work to exhaustion on a beloved project and then take a real break with an old friend.
We even went AWAY for two days, with my podmate Elizabeth and our three dogs to the lovely Art Deco Ocean Park Motel on 46th Avenue at Ocean Beach in San Francisco. I'm telling you, I VACATIONED!

And, yes, it was foggy at the beach. But fog can be nice TOO if that's what you end up with. Very mysterious and magical, fog is.

So: The Zoom reading of MIKVAH with a cast of two experienced and age-appropriate actresses for an audience of friends:

It was so exciting for me to see the play LIVING. People believed this 1905 Jewish village world. They believed Rachel and Chava were real people. They cared about them, thanks to the wonderful actresses and my writing. They believed the two women were madly in love with each other, even though they couldn't touch each other because they were stuck in boxes next to each other-- one box in Brooklyn and one in Ashland, Oregon.

I am so grateful to my director, Heather, who arranged the auditions that brought Amy (Chava) and Emily (Rachel) to us. The two of them were inspired.

The Zoom audience understood Rachel was trapped in a marriage to an abusive husband and it was particularly unbearable to her previously untrammeled spirit.

But then again, the actual murder of her husband was a bit controversial. That was good, that was good.

The Zoomers had a lot of good suggestions -- way too many for me to take in. Fortunately we recorded most of the discussion, so I can go back and watch it. And the Zoomers had criticisms. One friend went on at length about how inappropriate it was for for Chava to give Rachel the nickname "Little Bird." It was hard for me to hear. But then again, my friend went on so long that I actually realized she was RIGHT!

WHAT PEOPLE WANTED MORE OF:

People wanted a longer play, which was very gratifying.

People wanted more about the mikvah itself -- its rituals and history and the little details of its operation. In other words, the mikvah is a CHARACTER.

People wanted Rachel to display her knowledge, if she was so damn learned.

People wanted to see Chava and Rachel having a GOOD TIME, being more playful. Wow, I was happy to hear THAT! Because them playing together is going to be FUN to write! Let's hear it for NOT going deep, for energizing myself by creating a bit of cavorting!

Trying to understand how Rachel can get to the point of killing her husband, and imagining the emotional consequences of that act -- this is very unknown territory to me. This exploration takes a lot out of me. But lovers playing together -- that's not just familiar, it's..it's really enjoyable to think about!

After everyone else had left the Zoom room, Carolyn and Heather and my friend Tara, who read stage directions, and I continued the discussion. More and MORE and MORE ideas!

Carolyn thought the play absolutely needs music. Now, THAT'S a very exciting thought, because the music of that time and place and culture is KLEZMER! Kind of jazzy and minor key, ranging from mournful to wild celebration, Klezmer is Jewish blues that makes you get up and DANCE. And we know the leader of Isle of Klesbos, a wonderful lesbian klezmer band. She can perhaps be convinced to compose some music for us.

I've always prided myself on being open to criticism. I'm not as defensive as other writers. I have a very deep understanding that I cannot get where I want to go artistically BY MYSELF! I need help, and lots of it.

But I also need lots of encouragement. I'm not one of those visionaries whose inner flame burns so brightly that they can overcome obstacles on their own. (I just read a biography of the first woman doctor in America -- Elizabeth Blackwell. She had that indomitable drive.) Me, I need people to tell me my work is important, in order to believe in myself.

So I was especially deeply touched by my friend Jerry's words. He could not understand how other people could even SPEAK after the intense and powerful experience of MIKVAH. Thank you, Jerry, for your articulate inarticulateness. Thank you for being overwhelmed by MIKVAH.

So the first draft of MIKVAH is a success. The play really works in its current form --- although it can be SO MUCH BETTER, with music, playfulness, more information on the mikvah, more scholarly observations by Rachel and a new nickname for her too -- among other things. Chava, strange awkward innocent Chava -- she's already there in full bloom.

You know, I channeled this whole play -- except for one part of it. Quite often incidents in my plays are based on my life or on things I read or heard about from other people. But MIKVAH came from inside me -- except for the part about Schlomo the beggar drilling a hole in the mikvah so he could peep at the women bathing. That came from a New York Times story about a Hasidic community in upstate New York, where the Rabbi did that very thing.

I've said before that being a playwright is like being God and creating a world. But I've never gone so far out on a limb before. This world I've created is so different from my own. I wondered, before the reading, whether I'd really brought it to life. I have! And this world is the right place for me to examine a theme that has haunted me for decades -- women's rage against the patriarchy.

ONWARD!

Dear Bloggelinis: I'm looking forward to describing this process of creation of a play to you. I've never done that before.
Terry

 

THE PLAY I'M WRITING

This is an 18th century etching of a Jewish ritual bath (mikvah in Yiddish) in Amsterdam.
Observant married women must purify themselves every month in the mikvah
after they menstruate and before they have sex with their husbands.

I haven't been blogging lately, because I'm deep into writing a new play. I'm not a good multi-tasker. I know, I know, I shoulda just SAID I was taking a break from BAUMblog. But of course I THOUGHT I was going to blog AND write MIKVAH. Anyhow, my apologies for being missing in action for so long. Later today, we are having a ZOOM reading of the first draft of MIKVAH, for a few friends. Having a first draft is a very big deal for me.

MIKVAH takes place in the women's ritual bath house in a small Jewish village -- a shtetl -- in Poland in 1905. We're talking FIDDLER ON THE ROOF time and place -- but a very different take.

The story concerns the intense love affair between Chava, the unlettered mikvah attendant and Rachel, a highly educated young woman who has just married an abusive and controlling man.

The theme of MIKVAH is:
WOMEN'S RAGE AGAINST THE PATRIARCHY!

The seed of MIKVAH was actually planted in 1974 at a women's music festival in the Santa Cruz mountains. At the time, I would never have believed it would take 47 years for me to actually get around to finishing a first draft.

THE STORY OF THE CREATION OF MIKVAH:
I moved to Santa Cruz in 1974 to join some college friends to start a new theater. All these college friends happened to be of the male persuasion. I was not yet a lesbian, but it was still a great big drag to be the only woman. The men were perfectly nice. But they found my ideas strange or uninteresting or both.

Carolyn relates what happened next in her Introduction of ONE DYKE'S THEATER, and she does it well. So I'll let her tell it:

  • "That summer of 1974, a bunch of us from Isla Vista crowded into my old VW and drove up the California coast to Santa Cruz to visit Terry. We went to The Amazon Music Festival, where there was great music and two hundred women dancing ecstatically, mostly shirtless. This was our first time in a women-only space. We were luxuriating in our new-found feeling of safety and sisterhood under the towering redwoods, when a group of tough-looking men on motorcycles roared up to the gate, hostile and aggressive, shouting, demanding to be let in. A few of us recognized that things could get bad quickly, and tried to reason with the five of them. We were followed by 195 angry women, including Terry, itching for a fight. Our ad hoc negotiating team pointed out to the men that they were outnumbered forty to one, and that even masculine superiority might not save them. Just before the point of conflagration, the bikers turned around, and roared off. That night, Terry told me, when she was part of the legion of women warriors, she had received a vision of a play about women's rage against the men, created by an all-women theater troupe. She was going to move to the Bay Area to realize her vision. This is the mythological, yet true, creation story of Lilith Theater (named for the Bible's first uppity woman)."

So I DID move to Berkeley and I DID start a women's theater collective. But did I create a theatrical attack on the patriarchy? ABSOLUTELY NOT! And why not? Because I discovered that people were really not all that interested in seeing women's rage portrayed. I would say they were intensely interested in NOT seeing women's rage portrayed. In fact, when Lilith Theater tried to talk about men oppressing women, we were perceived as man-hating females who exaggerated how bad men were!

The clearest example, of this universal distaste for women's rage, occurred during the development of Lilith's 1977 play, MOONLIGHTING, about women and work. Strange as it sounds, way back then it was groundbreaking to talk about WOMEN AND WORK! Of course, women WERE WORKING at jobs everywhere! But still, the culture held onto an image that MEN worked JOBS and women just lolled around the house all day cooking, cleaning and taking care of children. That is, they did not go to JOBS and WORK!

So Lilith created a play through improvisation that was inspired by the jobs that the collective members had actually worked.

Carolyn had been a forest fire fighter on a crew in the National Forest a few years before. Her crew was the very first crew in California to have any women on it, and her boss did everything he could to humiliate and intimidate her in front of the other crew members. We created a scene that portrayed what her boss actually did and said, interspersed with Carolyn's fuming fantasies of what she'd like to do to him in return.

But when we showed an early version of the firefighter scene to a small group of friends -- all women and feminists -- their response was: "Why are you making the crew chief so evil? It's not believable and it makes you look like man-haters!"
MAN-HATERS! An identity to be avoided at all costs!

In response to that critique, we toned down the portrayal of the crew chief. The scene no longer accurately reflected Carolyn's experience. BUT we hoped it would be palatable to our supposedly liberated audience. However, audience members -- from straight women to separatist dykes -- STILL took us to task. Why were we going out of our way to make doctrinaire feminist points in the Firefighter scene -- points that had no basis in reality?

So it turned out that, living under patriarchy, feminist women in the Bay Area did not want to hear about the true extent of men's oppression of women. Men's violence had to be muted, normalized.

And while it was rather impolite to portray the extremity of men's oppression of women, it is also true that men oppressing women seems, well, kinda normal. Just think about how frequently women are killed, both in reality and in fiction. Under patriarchy, we've gotten USED to men killing women.

Woody Allen's 1989 movie, CRIMES AND MISDEMEANORS, is about a man who murders his wife, largely because her existence is inconvenient for him. He gets away with it and goes on to live a pleasant life, thank you very much. Nobody was shocked by that! For many fans, this is Allen's greatest film. It was considered a great philosophical statement about the INDIFFERENCE OF THE UNIVERSE. But in fact, it was a statement about the DEPRAVITY OF THE PATRIARCHY. Not only did Woody Allen fail to notice that, nobody else noticed it either! (Well, I did, but I'd been thinking about women's rage against the patriarchy since 1974.)

But, on the other hand, if you want to show a woman killing a man -- oh then, everyone's all concerned. Did she really HAVE to do it? Couldn't she have run away? Did he really treat her THAT badly? Couldn't she have just hurt him without killing him? Was she mentally ill to do that? Why didn't she go to the police and ask for help?

Really, a woman is not entitled to kill a man UNLESS SHE HAS ABSOLUTELY NO OTHER OPTION AVAILABLE. And even then, she's not supposed to do it. And she can NEVER just get away with it, like Allen's creepy hero! The best she can hope for is to pull a Thelma & Louise and drive over a cliff to her death! Yes, when it comes to violence, women are held to a completely different standard than men.

And that is why it has taken me FORTY-SEVEN YEARS to finish a first draft of MIKVAH, a play about women killing oppressive and violent men and getting away with it.

I got started writing MIKVAH several years ago in a playwriting workshop that my good friend, Martha Boesing, was teaching in the Tenderloin. In this rough neighborhood of San Francisco, many of the budding playwrights were living in homeless shelters or seedy hotels. There were some very talented writers in that group. Martha would give us assignments, and we would write in class. I used those assignments to start exploring MIKVAH for the first time.

I know that finally finishing the first draft at this moment has a lot to do with the MeToo Movement. This worldwide uprising of women, who refuse to live any longer for the exclusive benefit of men, has helped me give myself permission to explore this story. And completing a first draft was greatly facilitated by finding a director (a straight married woman at that!) who believes in the play and is pushing me to make it happen.

So in a few hours, MIKVAH will take a step into the world. This reading is for an audience of a few friends. There will be a discussion after, and I'll know more if the world is prepared for this story. And if it is, I'll keep on writing MIKVAH. And if it isn't, I'll keep on writing it anyhow.

All for now, my dear Bloggelinis. I'm pretty excited. I'll tell you how the reading turns out. Terry